I am Niki and I am unhappy. It's been about 15 years since my last run in with "happiness". I suffer with weight issues, which has led to a lack of satisfaction with my life. My weight has caused several health problems including constant pain in my feet, ankles, knees and back... at times I've had high blood pressure, as well as gestational diabetes. I am afraid that I will develop more problems health-wise if I do not get my weight under control. I have a family history of heart disease on both sides of my family and I freeze with fear every time I have any chest pain. Also not being able to feel uninhibited when naked in front of someone I'm intimate with- or simply not feeling comfortable in my clothes... well, it does psychotic things to ones self-esteem. I am uncomfortable, reserved, calculated, self-conscious, and mildly depressed due to my weight. Currently I weigh approximately 199 pounds, which for someone who is 5'1", means that I am obese. My current lifestyle is a detriment to my health. I need to do something- now, before my health problems cost me my sanity, my relationship, and ultimately my life.
This is my journey through weight loss and other things I enjoy in life.
This is my journey through weight loss and other things I enjoy in life.